Chapter 7

In my entire existence I have only had bad things, (starting with the size of my penis).

I have never been an attractive man and that is why women avoided me, even so, Margot (my ex-wife) was interested in the bulge between my legs and wanted us to have sex almost immediately after we became boyfriend and girlfriend, but another of my faults is being very prudish and as a good Catholic, I asked her to wait until we were married. She does not profess the same religion as me and she convinced me to just marry in a civil ceremony and so we did.

Our wedding night was nothing like I expected. It would be the first time I would have sex, and I didn't know what to do. Margot had already had quite a few partners and slept with all of them, so I let her take control of the situation, but that first and only time was so horrible that neither she nor I wanted to repeat it, and the problem was not due to lack of desire, but to her exaggerated performance. I know that the dimensions of my penis are outrageous and even without being aroused it has a thickness that makes it visible from a long distance and obviously that night the erection was huge and without having penetrated her deeply, she moaned as if I were killing her. She hit me and walked away from me as if I were a murderer (or something like that). She said she was leaving me because she couldn't stand the pain my penis was causing her, but I know that wasn't the real reason, but rather that when she saw me without clothes, I disgusted her, and she preferred to leave me to go with a man with money (just as ugly as me).

After that failure, things only got worse and the older I got, the uglier I got. When I turned forty-five, I knew that my dream of being a father would never come true, because at that age I looked like a very old, ugly, fat man. My hair started to fall out and I never had perfect teeth. My skin darkened because I spent hours under the sun during my days as a bricklayer, before entering the school where I would work for the rest of my life. The only good thing that happened to me was finding two of my best friends, Ofelia the cook and Luis the pastry chef. They have always treated me with respect and affection and thanks to that I was no longer alone, but the uglier I became, the more difficult life became for me at school. The young people made fun of my appearance and even threw garbage at me to have the pleasure of seeing me bend down to pick it up. There were years of enduring daily humiliation, until one day Juliana came to work. She would be the new executive secretary and by her side I found not only a good friend, but also a defender. Juliana is pretty and seductive. For five years we were happy as friends, but the friendship began to deteriorate when she told me that she fell in love with me. I laughed because I really thought she was playing, but seeing her cry in desperation, I had to accept that maybe she was not lying, however, for me she meant nothing more than a friend and I asked her to forget what she said, since I was sure that I would never fall in love with anyone again, but there is a saying “never say never”.

At forty-nine, I met a sweet and friendly teenager. Mariana Rivas was not only pretty, but also kind. She didn't care about my appearance either and we became friends almost immediately. At that time, I saw her as what she was... a teenager on the verge of becoming an adult, but as the years went by, she became more beautiful and when she turned eighteen, I realized that I could no longer see her with innocence. From one day to the next, the scrawny girl became a sensual woman. Her body molded beautiful curves impossible to ignore. Her beauty became more pronounced, and her lips became a temptation every time they moved when we talked and her beautiful blue eyes fascinated me to the point that I could not take my eyes off them. For months I refused to accept that what she was transmitting to me was love and passion, but when she told me she had a boyfriend, I cursed my luck, and the pain of imagining her in the arms of another man depressed me so much that I stopped working at my job and locked myself in my little house, not wanting to see anyone.

I have never had wet dreams because even for me, I am so horrible that it is impossible for me to see myself as the protagonist in that type of carnal acts, but since Mariana went out with that guy, my dreams turned into nightmares and in them I saw her having sex with her boyfriend. It was so desperate that I was close to letting myself die, but the night I was ready to end my existence, Mariana came like a saving angel.

I couldn't get over my surprise when I saw her in front of my door, when she threw herself into my arms with tears in her beautiful eyes. She immediately asked me to let her in and so I did. She was still crying, and I sat her on my lap to comfort her, but when I felt her buttocks on my penis, it became more aroused than ever before, and shame invaded me. She caressed my face as if it were something beautiful and that made my reason go to hell. I didn't know how it happened, but suddenly I could feel the softness of her lips on mine and for the first time I knew what the French kiss was (which lasted a long time). Mariana's hands prevented me from moving away, but even if she hadn't held me tight, I would have stayed glued to her mouth anyway, and her nectar is so sweet that I wanted to mix it with mine. Unfortunately, I know that I don't have a pleasant breath and when I felt my drool slipping into hers, I forced myself to end the kiss. Mariana said many beautiful things, but the most important thing is that she asked me to make love to her.

She kissed me again, her tongue moving in search of mine, and I responded to her caresses with the same eagerness. My hands wandered over her body and found one of the most desirable parts. Immediately my rough hand began to knead her glorious breasts, but her panting brought me back to some sanity and her pleas revealed something I didn't believe to be true.

Good God!... That beautiful woman was asking me to make her a woman because she was a virgin... a beautiful and immaculate nymph, she wanted an ugly old man to enter her body for the first time?... had I died and gone to paradise?

Despite what had happened, I was still incredulous about her words. She continued trying to convince me and even allowed me to touch the soft skin of her breasts. I swear I almost died of joy, because it was Mariana who offered to give me the sky and the stars, but my stubbornness was so great that I challenged her to see me naked. I knew that as soon as she saw me, she would run away from me and when she did, I could finally end my miserable existence, although the beautiful Mariana changed my plans (for the better).

Not only did Mariana not show any disgust when she looked at me, but she even gave me my first blowjob. Her tender mouth took hold of my fat penis and sucked it as if it were a delicious morsel. Her licking and sucking lasted longer than my old heart and body could bear, and I let myself fall into the chair. I thought that the change of position would make her stop, but that was far from happening. Her sucking was so exciting that I couldn't help cumming in her mouth. My sweet Mariana swallowed all my semen, and my penis lost its erection, even so, she continued kissing my hideous body and my penis recovered in minutes. When she licked my anus, I was about to have a heart attack. My heart almost jumped out of my chest, and I pushed her away accidentally. Seeing her on the floor made me feel miserable and although my knees hurt from my poor physical condition, I rushed to hug her to ask for forgiveness. Mariana didn't say anything, she just stood up and stripped completely naked and I could finally look at her in all her beauty. Her body is that of a goddess. Large breasts with small nipples, a tiny waist and wide hips followed by two long, shapely legs completed the wonderful picture of the beautiful nymph in front of me. My perverted gaze went to her pubis barely covered by blond hair, but I couldn't continue delighting in that vision because Mariana immediately lay down on my soft bed with her legs spread wide open, giving me a thousand times better image. I could see how her sweet pussy opened and closed in a clear invitation to my penis that already had one of the biggest erections of my existence. It was so fat that I knew it would hurt her, because unlike my first wife, Mariana was a virgin and her vagina was tight, but the passion I felt at that moment was so great that my mind stopped thinking, and I threw myself at her body like a real animal in heat. I kissed her body and tasted her appetizing breasts like a baby. Desperately I licked her vagina and sucked her clitoris. As payment I got the most delicious nectar I have ever tasted, when her first orgasm took place. I could barely ask with my eyes if I could continue, when she nodded and I tried to thrust into her vagina, but the damn thickness of my penis did not allow me to even go further. I tried for a few minutes and barely managed to get to the test of her virginity. Feeling the membrane that protected her brought me back to my senses, because Mariana was truly pure and I was the worst monster in the world for wanting to snatch away the opportunity to know what it was like to make love with someone deserving of such a beautiful moment, so sadly I began to move away, but Mariana did not allow it and with her legs clinging to my buttocks, she pushed me back and using all the strength of her precious body, she herself managed to bury my penis to the bottom of her intimacy. A slight crunch and the warmth of a liquid covering my penis confirmed the loss of her virginity. I was aware that the liquid was blood, but instead of feeling bad for hurting her, a wave of selfish pride spread through my soul, and I rammed her like an animal. It was so wonderful to feel the throbbing of her vagina and the moisture that was forming due to her excitement that I moaned like crazy... I was her owner!... Mariana would always have the memory that I was the first to know her intimately and it would not matter that she had only been mine that night, because it is impossible for women to forget their first time.

“How warm her vagina is! What appetizing breasts! What a delicious aroma her sweat gives off! What a beautiful smile she has every time I penetrate her!” These and many other thoughts flooded my mind every time I entered her interior. My sweet Mariana never showed pain. She always kept a smile and looked at me with so much affection that it made me feel like she even loved me. Her caresses on my body were also tender and when she kissed me, she did it with so much passion that I was able to maintain my erection long enough to give her the pleasure she deserves. Shortly after, her vagina squeezed my penis and it was sucked deeper and I can almost swear that I was just a few centimeters from her uterus. My selfish mind wished it were so, and the excitement that the thought of filling her with my seed gave me grew to alarming levels and I came inside her. At that moment I cared about nothing other than the wish that by divine grace she was not taking care of herself. That cumshot was more abundant than the one I expelled in her mouth and exhausted I fell on her body. Mariana caressed me tenderly and her kindness made me feel like a damned opportunist, because if she got pregnant, I would destroy her life or worse, I would make her want to get rid of my child. Terrified by this prospect, I tried to take out my penis, but her legs squeezed me tightly and her arms imprisoned me in her breasts. My tired body could not fight against her and sleep knocked me out for several hours.

All weekend I enjoyed her body. Mariana never denied me anything, she even gave herself to me willingly. Unfortunately, Monday came, and I had to leave her warm body to go do my tedious job. I was so happy that I forgot to talk to her about having unprotected sex, but fate is always cruel, and I remembered when I saw a condom on the floor. I immediately went back to the house and, gathering my courage, I hinted that I didn't use a condom and asked her if she took contraceptives. In that conversation, the first thing that became clear to me was that for Mariana there is no worse word than "sex." For my sweet wife, what we do is "love" and if I said that I think it is unnecessary to use it, I would be lying, because I love that she feels that our carnal commitments go beyond pleasure. The second and most important thing is that she is not afraid to bring my children.

Could you be happier? I don't think so. Almost three years after that first time, life continued to give me more and more happiness.

However, I have been doubting the veracity of my thoughts for four months and Juliana has a lot to do with it. She told me that her nephew has complained because Mariana has made advances on him.

I didn't want to believe her because she hasn't changed her attitude towards me. In fact, she has been looking for me for two months so we can make love, and she even asks Silvia to take care of Fil from four to six in the afternoon, and during those hours, we dedicate ourselves to giving ourselves slowly to enjoy each other more. We even last half an hour with our sexes joined because Mariana says that it excites her to feel my semen inside her uterus (if I didn't know that she takes contraceptives, I would hope that she is trying to get pregnant).

This afternoon Juliana asked me to help her with some boxes because she was going to move house and although I didn't want to skip the hours of pleasure with my wife, Juliana convinced me by telling me that I never help her with anything. Resigned, I went with her and my son to tell Mariana, but when I entered, I saw her hugging that boy and jealousy invaded me. I was so hurt that I don't remember the stupid things I said. I was only aware of my wife's sad look and my son's call, but I'm so stupid that I went with Juliana to her house.

Along the way I reflected and realized that I am the biggest fool of men.

All the memories of my life with Mariana came to my mind.

We got married in church three months into her pregnancy. My beloved wife gave birth to our precious son at the age of nineteen. I expanded the house and even managed to open a shop which will be the inheritance I will leave to my two greatest loves.

At almost fifty-five years old, I am still a good lover, and I make love to my wife at least four times a day (five if we stay up late). Mariana is magnificent sexually. She gives me two blowjobs a day and constantly seeks me out to kiss or make love. She is always holding my hand and never hides from kissing me. She is affectionate and even though I ask her opinion for every plan that I comes to mind, she just smiles at me and tells me that I have her full support. We are almost never separated. We both take care of our son and divide our time to give the other the opportunity to fulfill their duties. Fights or tantrums are non-existent, and it is all thanks to my wife's sweet character. If I have a bad day, Mariana calms me down by stripping to give me a blowjob before offering me her body to let off steam. I can be very wild at those times; however, Mariana never complains, and her wonderful smile remains despite my brutal thrusts. When I finally ejaculate inside her, my mood returns to calm, and she hugs me and whispers words of love. I have never seen her angry with me. Mariana can be rude to the students and especially to Juliana, but she is very loving with me and our son. I know that little Filomeno will be our only child, but I don't feel bad about it, because I have the most wonderful woman on earth and her love is enough to make me smile and keep fighting every day.

I wanted to hit myself for doubting her love and I asked Juliana to get back at college.

—Didn't you see that your wife is cheating on you with my nephew? —She said mockingly. —That girl has never loved you, Filomeno.

—If she didn't love me, she wouldn't have married me. You don't see how old I am and yet Mariana is by my side… if that's not love, then I don't know what else to call it.

—He's taking revenge on his parents, and you can't deny it because since they got married none of two has come to visit us.

—We are going to my mother-in-law’s house.

—But the powerful Mr. Rivas have never stooped to visit the little house of the old janitor who married his little daughter… Your wife's plan has stopped amusing her and now she is looking to satisfy herself sexually with a man her age.

—It's not true —I said firmly. —Your poison will not make me distrust my wife.

—You're an idiot! —She shouted and gave brake strong. —The whole plan was going well, but as usual, you come and ruin everything with your exaggerated confidence in that damn bitch who came between the two of us.

—Mariana didn't do such a thing... I told you that I can only see you as a friend.

—I am only ten years younger than you, while that girl is thirty-four years little than you… Does it excite you more to be with her because she could almost be your daughter?

—No… I don’t think that’s it. You look younger than your age and you have a curvy body that competes easily with Mariana’s, but my heart is the one that doesn’t get excited when I’m with you.

—Your heart may not be excited, but why don't we try your penis — she unbuckled her belt and with a quick movement she placed himself on top of me with her legs next to mine — let's do it once! If you like it, let the girl go and I swear that I will give you all the children that I know you want to have.

Juliana moved her hips, and the friction stimulated my penis which immediately became hard, but still did not manage to thicken it like Mariana does with a simple kiss and I knew that my body responds better next to the woman I love and not the one I like.

With my hands on Juliana's waist, I made her get off of me and forced her to return to her seat.

We both remained silent because of the awkward situation, but Juliana was the one who quickly ended that moment.

—She won't forgive you and you don't know how happy I am to know that —She said with hatred. —It's true, that girl hasn't fallen into my nephew's clutches even though he has tried several times, but what you did before we left the store ruined your marriage.

—I didn't do anything —I rebutted out loud.

—You came with me without caring that your wife asked you not to and my nephew had orders to get it into his little head that we are having sex right now.

—You're a viper! —I exclaimed, hurt by her cruel trap. —I should never have trusted you, but from today on, I demand that you stay away from Mariana and me.

Before my eyes was the worst viper I could ever meet. Her rage at knowing that her plans to separate me from my wife had not worked made her reveal to me the trap and the hatred she feels for Mariana and in seconds she had her on top of me again wanting to kiss me, but anger allowed me to forget that she was a woman, and I threw her away with force. Then I got out of the car and walked a few steps in search of a taxi, but a blow to my legs made me fall and after that I knowing nothing more from myself.